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I feel curious when you bought my book. If you don’t have the newest version with added pictures and a few added bits, let me know, and I will send it to you directly.

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Yes, I do have your e-book and I think I will read it again. Sex (for the first time in my life) is delicious in mine and J’s relationship and I intend to keep it that way

The closer you become with your partner, the closer you want to become. It’s like a for the most part never ending adventure. We are a bit unusual, and it’s not the recommended way, but we prefer to spend most all of our spare time together. We don’t have nor do we want to have boy’s or girl’s night out. We also have the same interests. We get to dance together. We love music, and so on. And we love to just hang out with each other, each on our respective computers.

And sex is a big part of our life together. I don’t remember if you have my ebook, but I tell a bit of m story around this, how I set out on a sexual exploration which he happily joined in on.

So beyond this, I don’t know what else to tell you. If you ever have any questions, my door is always open.

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I would love to know your secrets to keeping that going because I want to keep that going with J.

I know exactly what you mean about the partnering. I’m much smaller/shorter than you and still, if they don’t get it, they don’t get it. Actually K has been the only partner I feel completely safe with, but I didn’t always. It developed along with the trust I felt in our relationship.

Now it’s time to put this belief aside. Just as timely, the Healing Codes deals with these traumas directly.

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When I was dancing, I often performed the role of the Snow Queen in the Nutcracker. It was a part for a strong soloist with a bit of pas de deux in there. One year, my regular partner had been cast in another role with another dancer, and they didn’t have a partner for me… so they went and rented one from another company. The guy they chose was really weak, and couldn’t partner me nor lift me (and I was skinny and light!).

I remembered being on stage, in the rush of “performance adrenaline” and knowing that he was not strong enough to partner me, and that we would f* up… and that I would have to cover for it. It was a terrible season of Snow Queen… they even gave my tutu to my B Cast dancer (a woman who was about 5″ smaller and much smaller). So I had a second-rate tutu that year too.

I believe that it was a traumatic event (coupled with the fact that I was dancing and had adrenaline running through my veins, which makes me wonder if it got “in” very deep), and the men I have chosen have been too weak to partner me.

…and the good ones I’ve scared away because I’ve tried to control the situation. (D, you know how it feels to be partnered in a pas de deux – you have to be completely trusting, and if he’s too weak, he can and will drop you!)

So anyway, awesome post! Right on track for me today!

xoxo

Please keep in touch.

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